(Matt: Grace wrote this post. In the following post we journey with Grace as she descends to the farthest depths of grouchiness before coming out the other side of the valley and into the light of acceptance and good cheer.)
You will recall from the previous post that plans had been made to go to Tirupati, a Hindu temple. We all had to wake up at 4AM to catch cabs up to Vijaywada to catch a train down to Tirupati—it would be a nine hour journey.
This trip was a bit poorly planned. It had been talked about previously but the night before we left was the first time we heard anything concrete about it. In India, you have to reserve seats on the trains ahead of time or else go standby, which is literally standing unless extra seats are available. There are two classes, second class and AC car/first class. Previous attempts to buy AC car tickets were unsuccessful and now there were only 2nd class so they bought them while they were available.
My mom was embarrassed of my clothes because I had only brought (completely modest and decent) skirts and t-shirts. She bought me two outfits of this somewhat stiff, uncomfortable fabric. It’s called Punjabi dress and it’s long baggy pants with a drawstring waist, and a long tunic to wear over it. On top of that you have to wear a neck scarf that hangs around the front of your neck and drapes in back. When I put the pants on, I realized they had no drawstring. I had to take the drawstring out of a different pair of pants. When we were about to leave for the train, I bent down to tie my shoe. Rrrrrrrrppp! The seams that held my pants together at the crotch ripped up. I surveyed the damage with my hands and determined the hole was about 6 inches in diameter and I thought, well, I’ll have to sit with my legs together, no biggie. It wasn’t until much later that I discovered the hole was many times bigger than I imagined, more like a foot and a half in diameter and completely ragged. It was only my long tunic down to my knees that concealed it, and maybe sometimes not even then.
Anyway, in the car up to the train station I started feeling a bit queasy. By the time we were seated on the train I was doing okay. The second class car is just wooden benches, and it's very crowded with open windows.
I needed to go to the bathroom but no one could tell me where a bathroom was and so I had to go on the train. Afterwards I got queasy again and for the first time in India, felt like I needed to throw up. I slept for a little bit and felt better.
In India, vendors go through the cars back and forth and back and forth selling their snacks, drinks and meals. They have incredibly loud, high-pitched, nasal voices and shout, “Coffee, coffee! Chai, chai!” all up and down the car. It’s the kind of voice where your reflex is to look up towards it because it is so annoying. This makes the vendor think you want something and can be awkward.
Trains in India go an average speed of 30 mph and stop at each station along the way. At every station, even more vendors come on to the train and try to sell their food. It makes for a loud, crowded environment.
It is also very hot in the trains, despite copious fans on the ceiling, so it’s good to be by a window, so at least you have some fresh air. Unfortunately the air is very dirty from the debris on the tracks, soot, people freely urinating and defecating on and near the tracks, smoke from about a million cooking fires, trash which people throw out the windows of the train without hesitation. By the time we finally got off that train, my face and arms were visibly filthy and my hair was absolutely stiff with dirt and dust. It hadn’t felt so stiff since once when I was cutting drywall and all the dust fell into my hair. Luckily I brought facewipes and wiped my arms—it came away completely brown with dirt.
So the city we arrived at was called Tirupati but the actual temple was on top of one of the mountains surrounding the city. There is a whole tourist development up there to cater to the many pilgrims who come to see the temple. The reason it’s so famous is because it’s for a god called Venkateshwara, a monkey god, and the whole temple is made of solid gold. The image of the god is in the temple and if you shave your head and give him your hair as an offering he may grant you a wish. So that explained all the completely bald-headed people we saw everywhere at the train station.
As we mentioned before, people in India have very little (some would say no) public manners when they’re in a fairly anonymous setting. They will push and shove people out of their way. They rush to crowd onto the train cars before people are even able to get off making a crushing jam of people at each door. We were mildly surprised to find it was true of these religious pilgrims as well. In fact, we found they were especially pushy, rude and impatient.
We got off the train and took a taxi to the top of the mountain – we were a party of 6 adults and 4 children, and we all squeezed into one taxi. It was unbelievably hot, without a cloud in the sky.
When we got to the top, the taxi dropped us off at a center for pilgrims with a sort of barracks called ‘pilgrim amenities lodge,’ a few hotels and street vendors around. My uncle left us all with our bags sitting under a tree while he and his oldest son went to find us a hotel. This was supposed to be a three day trip.
While we waited, Matt had to go to the bathroom. The public toilets (squat toilets) had no running water. They collected water in a huge cistern at the entrance and you had to take a bucket of water into the stall with you with which to wash out the toilet afterwards.
We waited there for a half an hour before it started to rain. We went into a hotel lobby to get out. Actually, it was a multilevel concrete cell block that people slept in for free on concrete floors (Matt: This is a pilgrimage after all). Toilets and showers were whatever shack was nearby or the street. The place was so crowded, there were people lying on every spare bit of floor in the lobby, and we could see all the way back in the hallways.
Finding a hotel was taking longer than expected, my uncle’s oldest son reported to us. Every place was very crowded. My uncle was going to try making a booking on the internet. His son led us to some benches closer to where my uncle was looking and there we sat. We waited there under a tarp to protect us from the rain with no further information for five hours.
How did we pass the time? There was some tea found. We walked out in the rain to see some of the junk the vendors were selling. We discovered the women’s toilets were the same as the men’s. Matt and I had a strange conversation with my mom. She kept insisting all these people – the pilgrims all around us, the people in her village living in huts, the people we saw walking the city streets with filthy clothes and no shoes – were not poor, were far from poor, were just people going about their lives. She seemed pretty adamant but I think by any international standard these people would be considered very poor – if you can’t afford to buy yourself a pair of shoes and eat only one meal a day, you’re poor. But she also said that Indians have been getting “too rich” because they all have family members in the UK, US and Canada who send back money to them. One hundred dollars a month sent back to India is 4000 rupees, enough to build a new house.
(Matt: I thought Grace’s mom’s comments were really interesting and said a lot about just how far India has come in the last 10 or 15 years. They have had 8% growth since the early nineties when then Finance Minister Manmohan Singh – educated at Cambridge! – instituted a bunch of economic liberalization programs. For comparison’s sake, the USA usually has between 2 and 3% annual growth. From Grace’s mom’s memory what we’re seeing now is a vast improvement from 20 years ago. Other evidence bears this out. Most people we met live in pretty nice houses now, but they’re old family photos show them living in palm thatch huts. And I could count the number of beggars I’ve seen on two hands. I was hassled more in DC then I have been here. And reading about the children’s home where we’re staying is really enlightening. Ten years ago they didn’t have running water, regular power and they owned one scooter for transportation. Now they have a full western shower with heated water, a generator with 24 hour power, internet access and a fleet of buses to take kids to and from school. India seems poor compared to America, but I don’t think that’s a useful comparison. Compare it to itself 20 years ago and things are going nowhere but up. The future is promising for India.)
Eventually my uncle came back to us with accommodation. They were called “cottages” but they were pretty dismal. They were one-room apartments in little 2-storey complexes furnished with one bed, one lawn chair and one table. We had two such rooms between us, in different complexes. The beds were covered with a single ripped and filthy sheet. The single mattresses underneath were also soiled and filthy and damp from the windows being left open in the rain. There was a bathroom with a squat toilet but no sink. There was no running water at all. There were two buckets which had to be filled at a pump down the street and carried up to the room. We would have to take baths in the bathroom from these buckets. And there were cockroaches crawling on the floor and walls.
Everyone was angry and miserable, even my mom. She said, "That’s it, I don’t care about seeing this temple, let’s leave tomorrow morning and go back." Someone mumbled something about having to go standby. We didn’t understand until later but the tickets they had bought for the trip were not return tickets, they were one way.
It was 11 pm and no one had eaten anything since 6 am. My Uncle told matt to go with him and he took all the males to a restaurant. Matt was good enough to have a takeaway order packed for us, and brought it back so the women could eat.
Afterwards we went to sleep. Mom, my sister, Matt and I slept in one room (Matt: on two double beds put next to each other) and the other six people somehow slept in the other.
Before we split up, there was talk of going to see the temple when it was least crowded – its open 24 hours a day but it is very crowded. My aunt wanted to go wait in the line at 2 am (evidently, there is a line even at that hour). Most people didn't want to do that. Five A.M. was agreed on instead.
The next morning we woke, some people took baths (not me), we went to a hotel on the premises to eat breakfast. My uncle spent the day and the after this sleeping in their apartment. My mom, ever embarrassed of me, insisted I buy some bangles so that I would look right.
In India, for some reason, a woman (or girl) is not properly dressed unless she is wearing lots of jewelry. Women do not look “right” unless they have on at least one necklace, earrings, multiple bangles and bracelets, and if they are married, toe rings. Indians love gold. They love 22 and 24 karat gold, what in the US is known as ornamental gold. It is bright yellow/orange and Indians love it. I suppose it is a display of wealth. If you can’t afford gold bangles, you have to plastic ones, which I did.
After buying the bangles, we took a free bus they provide down to the temple site. You apparently had to go through a building in a queue to see it and at 7 am or so, people were pouring in. They did not let you take shoes or cameras or cell phones into the queue so we had to check everything. Then everyone had to go through metal detectors. Then we all got herded into this huge auditorium size room where we would have to wait. There wasn’t a single place to sit, people were crowded everywhere we tried to walk up the steps to the top of the room, but people were sitting or lying on the stairs and wouldn’t budge even if you started walking up. The auditorium was just a big room with rising wide concrete steps. There was nowhere to sit but people were perfectly willing to stretch full out wherever they were and not budge for anyone. Everywhere people were yelling and shouting, shoving people around, breaking their necks trying to push or cut ahead in line, physically forcing their children between people’s legs to secure a spot for them to sit. I cannot stand such a crowd. (Matt: It’s a good thing Grace never used the bathroom. You checked your shoes at the door after all…). Men kept trying to talk to me, and other people kept asking my mom who is that white boy. Indian people also have no problem asking you what, from a Western perspective, are the rudest questions in an interrogatory style. Eventually this started making my mom really angry because people refused to believe that Matt was part of our family, and would tell her so to her face (Matt: At this point in the trip I had not seen a single other white face since stepping off the plane in Hyderabad). Poor Matt was never aware when this was happening because he doesn’t speak Telugu. My mom can speak and understand it just fine and she was on her last nerve with this crowd too. Later she said she had to very firmly say to many people over the in Telugu, “Stop touching me! Don’t touch me again!” She couldn’t believe the complete absence of manners. In India people in public always seem to put their own desires, impulses, or convenience above others.
(Matt: I saw a book about just this topic a few weeks later. It was written by an Indian economist and it was trying to explain these strange behaviors of Indians en masse. I think the basic point was everyone would be better off if everyone practiced good manners but any individual is worse off practicing good manners when everyone else is being rude, so no one bothers to practice good manners. The only way to ‘flip’ the system would be if they could get everyone to switch at the same time, but I’m not sure how you would do that.)
Some of us were finally able to sit down except for Matt, myself and one of my cousins, the second of three boys – call him Cousin N. It seemed from this point we could expect a 5-6 hour wait as the crowd was moved from this room to the one next to it, and on and on and on, before seeing the temple. The three of us decided to take the room key and leave. Already the room behind the one we had been in had filled up. No one over the whole trip really told us what was going on or what to expect. If we had known we would have to wait in that situation for that long, we might have brought books or something like that. Bernice brought one so she was okay waiting. Matt and I bailed. I was glad to get away. The crowd was vicious and I wasn't very interested in the temple anyway. Matt was more disappointed and wished he’d known what to expect because he had really wanted to see the temple, being a religious studies scholar. But he was also glad to get away from the crowd.
(Matt: Here was my thinking. We’re going to be in line for 10 hours and we can’t bring cameras. This is a pilgrimage sight and I haven’t seen a single white face around. Maybe this is NOT something you do just to “see” it. Maybe it really is something you do as a religious pilgrim. For instance, whether you’re a Christian or not you can appreciate St. Peter’s Basilica. But what guarantees did I have that this was something like that? What if it was just a little statue of the god or something? I wasn’t Hindu so I made the call to skip the 10 hours. At the time I thought I could still see the temple, in the way you can see Westminster Abbey and think it’s really great even without going in. I even hoped maybe you could go in, just not to the part where the god is. Alas, I was mistaken.)
Matt, Cousin N and I went to buy some drinks (the first money we’d spent on ourselves since coming to India) and had a Mirinda (orange soda) and Thums Up (Coke). We were told you could see the outside of the temple but not the inside if you went up to it, so we went to take a look but you could actually only see the top, it was surrounded by a tall wall. Sure enough, what we could see was gold (the same 22 karat gold Indians love, probably why a solid gold temple is the most visited pilgrimage site in the world).
(Matt: It’s probably the most visited sight in the world because India has over 1 billion people, 82% of whom are Hindus and, unlike Rome, Mecca or Jerusalem, none of them need so much as a passport to visit this temple, which is the only one of it’s kind in India. (Grace: DUH.) There’s another temple to this god outside Aurora, Illinois, of all places).
There was a market of souvenirs all around the temple which we looked at. Cousin N, who is a really good lad, kept trying to buy us things that we didn’t want like fake gold rings and things. Wherever there is a sight like this, there are many shops selling souvenirs, trinkets, figurines of Hindu gods, and prints of painting of Hindu gods. These my mom collectively calls ‘bumooloo’ which literally means pictures, but here can mean any of the above. My sister says my mom loves bumooloo, especially pictures and painting but not of specific gods, and especially likes anything with a bobble head.
Anyway, we were looking at these bumooloo and then walking away when these two little beggar boys came up to us – one had a small little monkey on a leash sitting on his shoulder, but when we didn’t give them anything, the monkey lashed out and tried to grab my shirt! But I got away.
So we wandered around a bit more. There was a large garden area where we sat. At one point some kind of gypsy man approached us and tried to tell us our fortunes because if they do, you have to pay them some money. Luckily, we didn’t speak any language he spoke (he spoke three: Telugu, Hindi and Tamil) and Cousin N, who speaks Telugu was able to make him go away. We were all pretty tired from having woken up at 5 that morning and 4 the day before so we took the free bus back to our horrid apartment and slept for awhile. Matt had some vague idea that he wanted to go to an internet café in the afternoon and get some grad school application work done.
When we woke up we all three were very hungry. We went to the café where the men had eaten the night before and my cousin was instrumental in us being able to order lunch. We had two options – North Indian meal or South Indian meal. They give you a big plate with five small bowls each with a different curry and they put a mountain of rice in the center. Then it’s unlimited, you just keep eating and people come around refilling your rice and curries. Indians eat too much rice. It is fairly cheap and it is the staple of their diet. There are actually thanks to globalization and the improving economy relatively few starving people in India – almost everyone can afford rice and some curry for their family. To give a reference, an adult or teenaged Indian usually eats about the amount Matt and I would make to supply us both for dinner one night. But you see this is why so many Indians have diabetes. Also, I expected Indians to be painfully thin and gaunt, but only the very young, and I suppose the very very poor are – everyone else is clearly overweight. We haven’t seen anyone who is grossly overweight or obese (Matt: it’s not America), but that may be only a generation away, judging by the children, my cousins included.
(Matt: We’ve actually read in the papers about the serious diabetes problem in India. I think part of the problem is the economy has gotten better so everyone eats way way way more rice than they used to eat. Grace isn’t kidding about how much rice they eat. When they serve us they always think we hate the food because we only eat the amount of rice we're used to eating).
After lunch we went in search of internet at a tourist shopping center. This of course proved fruitless. We braved the free bus one last time, among pushy sweaty pilgrims. Indians don’t seem to have a concept of leaving people their personal space. I found myself (obviously not for the first time) longing for the British and the cushion of space everyone provides each other. It could be a fraction of an inch, but simply to avoid the sensation that someone is touching you, the British will brave any muscles spasm or cramp. Not so the Indians.
We returned once more to our apartment and put the chairs outside and sat to read our books for awhile. After a few hours of this and when it was getting quite dusky the lot who stayed at the temple came back. They all had smiles on their faces and told us about the temple, which they were able to enter. Sure enough it was gold and my sister said many of the pilgrims had no reservations at all about scraping and jabbing at the gold with pens to see if they could tear a chunk off. She said there were guards though and she now knew the Telugu word for “stop that!” All the cousins kept telling us over and over how great the temple was and told us over and over that is was solid gold like we wouldn’t believe it (Matt: I don’t believe it. I bet it’s stone with gold paneling. A solid gold building? Surely there would be a James Bond movie about some villain trying to steal it if it’s true). Mom and my aunty had bought bumooloo, real photos this time, and the cousins pointed and said, “Look, see? Real solid gold! Twenty-four karats!” I hypothesized that they were trying to prove to us that THEIR country has some fabulously extravagant and valuable sights too. Matt was sorely disappointed not to have seen it.
Several days later though my sister confessed that she had temporarily felt it was a mistake to stay in the temple queue when the 10 year old boy in front of her threw up on everyone and she had another few hours to wait. Apparently the newly wet pilgrims were pretty unhappy. She also confirmed what I had feared, that the queue was like a five hour mosh pit.
(Matt: Later we read that work is being done to address the crowding problems at this temple. Recently rejected was a plan to build a gigantic moving walkway.)
We all went to the same café again where they knew us well (the only white boy in 100 miles) and knew that we liked Mirinda (orange soda). Matt ate puri which are flat doughy rounds that have been fried in oil.
I had decided I couldn’t avoid taking a bath for another day, I would have to brave the bucket. But I insisted on buying some soap first (previous showerers had gone without). There was a kiosk on the street selling all manner of things, including a surprisingly large collection of soaps. I wanted something heavy duty – hospital grade even. I wanted to be clean, not smell nice for the 30 seconds before my sweat took over. I scanned the bars and my heart jumped at the bar of Dettol soap. Dettol is the British form of Lysol. That was the winner.
Another time we went back to the kiosk because one of the ladies of the party needed sanitary napkins. They took the package, wrapped it up in several sheets of newspaper and handed it to us in a brown paper bag like we were trying to buy booze on a Sunday in Ireland. Indians do the rudest things imaginable in public but they can’t even be straight about natural biological processes. It’s feminine and vaguely related to sex – therefore unspeakable.
Anyway, Matt brought up a full bucket of water for me. I screwed up my courage, grabbed my shampoo and industrial strength Dettol anti-bacterial soap. Halfway through my bath I noticed a cockroach on the wall behind a pipe but could not do anything about it. I kept my eye on it but it did not move. Finally … success! I had taken the worst bath of my cognizant life. And I felt better. It had rained and it was now cooler than the last few days and I felt relatively clean. The next morning I was considerably more chipper.
My uncle had gone back down the mountain to the train station the day before to buy us tickets home. They were for 5 pm and I gave up hope that they might be AC car tickets.
The night before Matt and I had gone for a short walk and this group of people seeing Matt asked if they could take a picture of him. He said no. That morning, a whole family down by the water pump asked matt to join them in a group photo. He again declined.
There was not much left to do in Tirumala so went to the Tirumala museum which was a huge pink and white building, half birthday cake, half Disney Princess Barbie Castle. It had some interesting photos and artifacts and statues of gods. It was the same sort of stuff you can see at the British Museum in London. My mom was quite indignant about that when she visited us in the UK. We were supposed to come back to the apartments at 12 because my uncle said so. We were all under the impression we need to relinquish the apartment keys by then. On returning that proved not to be true. My mom said we would go wait in our room and one of the cousins could come get us when it was time to go. The train was at 5 and it took half an hour to get there. For some reason they came at 2 and we relinquished the keys to our apartment. On going to my uncle’s apartment there was some confusion. Were we leaving now? Later? After lunch? It was three hours until the train, why had we left our apartment, it was at least a place to sit in the shade. These questions went unanswered.
During all the confusion about whether or not we were going yet, Matt, my sister and I wandered over to this landscaped garden to get a view down the mountain. We took some pictures and it was a pleasant temporary distraction.
We left. On the way down the mountain… Matt was thinking about the nature of arranged marriage in economic terms.
(Matt: Future research paper?)
At the base of the mountain, it was much hotter than up in it. We were still several hours early for the train and had not eaten lunch so we went to a restaurant near the train station and had chapathis and curry. (Matt: I got sick the next day and I wonder if it was because of these chapathis). Then we went to the station which was packed with people. The station office floor was covered with people spread out asleep. There was an old toothless man selling a sweet called luddu. They had given away luddu that had been “blessed” at the temple but no one had gotten any. My mother cannot let these things go, so she bought four or five bags of luddu from this man, even though it was the train station and they weren’t even blessed. Luddu are sort of crumbly balls of sweet dough.
At the train station we found a spare bench and sat. Beggars kept coming up to Matt and he obliged by giving them all the rupees he had. Another guy came up and chatted with Matt in English for a long time. Then he started asking Matt if he had any foreign currency, pounds and dollars, because he collects them and could he have them, but we actually didn’t have any on us. A five pound note is 400 rupees (unlimited lunch costs 50 rupees).
(Matt: On this train station I saw the first white face in Andhra Pradesh. The guy was a scraggly bearded, gaunt hippie type. He nodded at me, but looked a little too intense for a casual conversation).
Finally the train came. It was a sleeper train because it was going all the way to Mumbai, a long way. We were only going to Vijaywada. Hereafter followed what we refer to as the seating fiasco. Because the tickets were booked so late, our ten seats were spread over three cars and not a single one was next to another. Instead of going to our proper seats though, we just sat together in one place and as people came to claim ther reserved seats, moved into other that seemed empty. This basically resulted in everyone in our party being yelled at, at one time or another, for being in the wrong seat. Our own seats were lost to standby passengers who would not move. The little boys were left with nowhere to sit at all. At one point Matt and I were scrunched up into a single bunk, trying to get comfortable enough to read our books but it was not possible. Luckily, we were only on that train for 6 hours.
Tune in tomorrow for Matt’s exciting account of the train ride and possible causes of his mysterious illness the next day!